Clearly Defined...after so long a time!     The training of self is left up to me,    if I want to have perfect intimacy.   I was just thinking of a time before,    when my husband was still alive; I’d make many choices in order to see    admiration come out of his eyes.   Not really a law; or even a rule;    (The law part was, I was his wife); But, I had a goal; I needed to know;    He chose to have me in his life.   An unbreakable bond only love can enforce;    Then, rules are presented to avoid divorce; Well, what makes the difference?    How can we survive, if we don’t keep that first sweet    romance alive?    Why would one ever want to be    with another that didn’t want intimacy? Why would I not want to develop in me,    this magnet that gives me ecstacy? The ability’s there; Will I let it lie dead    and blame everything on my husband instead?   I really think the foundation of this    is something that I just read*; Thou, still in the family,    will I take charge of my life; Be invited to share in his bed?   How can I expect any admiration,    coming out of my Lord’s watchful eye, if I’m playing the game, by invoking the law,    to chain him right here at my side?   I really had never clearly defined    that this part was up to me: For me to take charge; define my goals;    then, alter what needs to be.   How coveted to see and then to hear:    Well done, My Lady; Come, stand over here    because I want you right here by my side; Forever, my love; my eternal bride.   After twenty years, seems a very long time,    to have some responses so clearly defined; I think, had I known this, I could have refined;    Yet, never too late for the truth to catch up, in my body, the things left behind.   Are all of these things still important to me?    Am I still a woman, my friend? To stop and retire, from my observation,    is The Lie that I’m not who I am.   The Lie carry’s with it an aging decay;    The Truth clearly states: It is not that way! Age should be wisdom’s accumulation,    with refreshing balms of re-generation; The tissues respond to Our goals this way;    Yes!  I still want His admiration today!   *The Revealed Truth; The Hidden Lie @ (www.covenantmessengers.net)    By A Covenant Messenger proclaiming    Grace for Kingdom Living GFL       January 22nd, 2005